Friday, May 13, 2011

well-watered garden

So there are many times when I've second guessed myself; outfits I've worn that I seen pictures of and think what in the world....,words said that I rehash over and over, opportunities missed. I've come to realize that I'm still really trying to do the 'right' thing. Still looking for the pot at the end of the rainbow, walk that perfect line. Find the perfect person for me. Its such a shame and burden to think like that- its no wonder there isn't much satisfaction to be found. I want to be enough, all I'm meant to be.....will I get there despite myself?
I did not know I had these walls to break, still.
I'm thankful God always has a way of nudging me forward.

Monday, March 28, 2011

who I am

who I am
who I am by jgrace on

Can I be happy in both? Does one make more since? Do I contradict myself?Very well then....

Thursday, March 24, 2011

verily, verily

At times I can be a bit weighty in thought, overly analytical some say. But as more and more reports abound of war, unrest, destruction, hatred and vengeance....we as a society seem to carry on, unaffected or worse unaware. Simply, it seems everyone hates so many things/people/places. much so we have forgotten there is something other than hatred to feel.

 My faith teaches me this seperation from goodness and kindness happens and everyone has a choice to live outside of hatred..but fewer and fewer are making that choice. There is an urgency humming in the world now that is different from what I've felt before. I think of the old Hymn sung at my parents wedding, Surely the presence of the Lord is in this place and pray for that with all my heart.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

reaction time

Perhaps it is a self fulfilling prophecy. I recently injured myself.
I could go on but basically, its my toe and it hurts.
What hurts a little more is what the nurse practitioner said when I explained what happened,
"your reaction time must be delayed."

Um ok. We all know I'm a bit clumsy but to call me delayed in anything really chapped me. I have no idea why- its certainly possible- but the thoughts of all the stories/plans/ideas that I have on delay started popping in my head...and I wondered if the answer was simply, my reaction time is delayed.
Perhaps that will ease the pain a bit? Will God get a laugh out of that?

I asked her how exactly one could test their reaction time as I was at the very most determined to be mediocre.
Maybe my quick wit was lost on her. ;)